“When a woman has a kingdom heart, she has an active understanding of what matters most to the heart of God. She lives in the balance of passion and contentment. She learns to love well, give without regard to self, and forgive without hesitation. The woman with a kingdom heart may have a duffel bag full of possessions or enough treasures to fill a mansion, but she has learned to hold them with an open hand. Hold everything with open hands. I don’t think we are ever allowed to grab hold of anything or anyone as though they matter more than the kingdom of heaven. When you hold relationships with open hands, then people come in and out of your life as gifts of grace to be cherished and enjoyed, not objects to be owned and manipulated. And then when you hold your dreams with open hands, you get to watch God resurrect what seemed dead and multiply what seemed small.”
– “A Beautiful Offering” by Angela Thomas
hold everything with open hands.
i’ve been so tired lately… mainly for good reasons.
i’ve been spending a lot of time with people who i’m building bonds with.
making memories with.
living life with.
and it’s been absolutely wonderful.
my heart has been so happy. i find so much joy in learning about other’s lives, and soaking in their wisdom and building relationships with people who are special.
i just recently went on a trip, (which i’ll blog more about later) and on the 5 hour drive that i had by myself, (after the 6 hour drive i had with someone else) i had a lot of time to think.
i’m not doing this right.
i’m not playing these cards right.
this hand that i’ve been dealt has been a good one, and because i’m often so concerned about filling my time with things, and people, and making memories…
…i’m missing out.
by my own standards, it might seem that my heart is in the kingdom.
but a lot of that is just going through the motions.
it’s playing the game.
but what does the game matter, if you don’t have the heart.
so here i am, letting go.
with open hands.
these relationships that i have with some of the best people in the world are truly amazing.
they really are.
and they’re in my life for a reason, and it’s an ordained time for me to be meeting new people.
but if i’m holding on to these things for dear life, then i’m missing just that…
…i’m missing the meaning of life.
so friends, i’m holding on to you with open hands.
because you are gifts of grace that i will always cherish and enjoy.
i hope, for both of our sakes, that you will hold on to me the same way.
and that together, we can find the meaning of life without distraction.
because life is too short, and too good to be anything else but awesome.
or happy.
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